Going it Alone

I never wanted to be alone, 
I never had a chance of my own. 
Don't get me wrong I'm not a loser, I'm a fighter, 
I don't back down very easily. 

But when the fight a losing battle, is it time to call it quits before it turns toxic?
A broken home I don't want one of those of my own, 
would it make it a broken home 
if it was never properly sown.

I wish I could talk to myself in the future to see how it works out with whatever decision I make. Give me some peace of mind in someone tell me it's all going to work out. 
I would love to understand if the kids think I'm making the right decision, 
the ultimate disappointment which is to fail my children.